Mixed feelings.

I wanna to cry now.
But I cant.

I wanna shout right now.
But I cant.

I wanna to punch/hit somebody.
But I cant.

I wanna hide now.
But I cant.

I wanna hug somebody.
But I cant.

I wanna die.
But I cant.

Can I do all this?

( I REALLY NEED TO SHOUT SHOUT SHOUT SHOUT!!!)
(I dunno what to do now。。。）